I couldn’t believe that what I felt badly when it is over at the end of 10 weeks and, what had such impact on my life was only a training. I believe that you should consider this process not as a course, a training activity but something that creates significant changes in the way you live without noticing it.
I had some big hesitations about, you know, how was it possible for me to complete this course process properly while I was working hard. And plus, I had almost no knowledge. But it turned out that it was possible. Of course, it is hard, when you have difficulties and push yourself to move on (you feel that you need to move on), you find yourself a bit stronger at a time. During the application process, I have read everything I found about this training and, I had a chance to talk to a few graduates but what I have read what they have said seemed far away from me. After the completion of this ten-week period, I now understand everything better.
First of all, you are not told everything during the training. As a matter of fact, this is the case. It is not something, you know, give the slides, read about the topics, and that’s it. Here, you are given keywords, and expected to do something about the issues you heard about for the first time. Well, you are expected to do something, but then what? You start thinking “what am I supposed to do?” and, never give up until you come out with something that may work. You may sometimes think that “What did I learn now? But I know nothing” etc., but you need to remain calm. Throughout the training, you are told “don’t worry, you will understand it”. Listen to it, because this is how it works. As a matter of fact, this process teaches you to be part of a team; you have a team, you are not alone, don’t be afraid. You are included in a group that consists of people different from one another. And all these differences start to disappear after the first field training, and you start to move trusting your own team.
You will notice that each word that is told, each action that is taken and, each incident that happens adds you something new. One of the sentences you will hear the most throughout the process giving you an idea how you should consider excuses is that most of what you say about you cannot or will not do something is just excuses you find, and the first you need to do is to get rid of them. There no place here for excuses. You will identify the borders, and you will get success and happiness when you push your borders. In fact, one creates a rapport to this place and, feels have a duty-bound. This is because there is a person with you who struggles together, sleeps less and makes efforts during this period of ten weeks. When you feel that you couldn’t complete an assignment properly, you feel remorse, and regret thinking that you did not take care of it sufficiently, you should not have slept instead of a one-hour sleep.
After the completion of this period of ten weeks, here is what happened: I sleep less, I feel that my body does not need more, I feel uncomfortable and have headache even when I sleep for an extra half an hour. Less sleep makes you feel more fresh and better, because there are many things to do during the rest of the say. You forget the word “enough”, you feel hunger for more work, since you have spent ten weeks without sleeping, making plans in your head to accomplish the tasks assigned.
And actually, you do not hesitate when you are asked “can you do this?”, all you do is to think how much time you have to figure out how to solve it. You get rid of all the friction factors one by one. I think I love this place so much because I have learned what the education life that took seventeen years failed to teach; you will learn how to learn here. You understand that the reason who you fail to do something is not knowing but failing to want enough.
I now notice that I mentioned the physical and mental aspects of the training, not the technical knowledge. This is what makes this training different from others. This is the reason why you feel that something changed in you. First, your family notices this change. And then, your inner circle and friends. When you hear this, you understand that it works. And you feel keenly that you need to go on. I have promised myself and, I need to move on in the same direction without losing all these achievements; because I am certain that this is what makes me feel better.
If you consider attending the next training and, you don’t feel assured from what you have read so far, you are free to find a graduate and, ask questions in your mind. As a matter of fact, this is what I did; I found a friend in my company, who have attended this course, and started to ask all the questions in my mind; he did not find me strange and, helped me as much as he could.
If you want to experience this process, take a note that: “The easiest day was yesterday!”. I work hard throughout the weekdays and, I am busy all the time, but I still feel that there is something missing in my life. That feeling is not exist. I don’t feel anymore that my life just starts after the office hours. I am not in a hurry wondering if everybody has sent the assignments and, I cannot think of anymore who is on the watch tonight. There is a great missing; I thought that I would feel relaxed when the process is over, but I feel bitter.
And my team, SilverWolves, this is the first Saturday without you, and I miss you much. I thank Cyber Struggle so much for everything it gave us and, for the family it let us have.